High Expectations

You know what I don't get?

Why everyone who tells us what high school is like, they tell us it's amazing. They tell us that you were the best four years of their life! They tell us to have fun and enjoy it because it will be a great experience. They paint us this pretty picture of you, making it seem like it will be the most exciting and exhilarating experiences of our life! You know how people tell you about some new movie in the theaters? They tell you it's so awesome and you would be an idiot not to see it? They got all your expectations up high and once you see it your hopes are let down. Or a party you were so excited about? Turns out to be a waste of time. Or when your crush crushes your feelings? I suppose that's why they're called that... But You're kind of like that. 4 years of expectations being a complete let down. We are all fooled by the dances, cars, sleepovers, and the amazing moments that are held only on a screen. Maybe it would be different if they weren't so high ranked. If we didn't give you such a high label. I mean, it seems like some people's minds get stuck in the 4 years. Like, they think it's their whole life. 20 years from now you won't even remember all that happened. Everyone makes you a big deal?? why?? Why are you so important?

you are some messed up convoluting high expectation of high energized hormones of girls and boys trying to figure out life and who they are.

Someone would have to be harebrained to experience YOU all over again.

sincerely me

Why?

Hey God,...

Everyone in my life tells me to follow you.. and still I don’t care. All the people that I look up to have given their entire lives up for you.. and still I don’t see the good in it. The one girl I love always listens and is talking to you.. and still I don’t change. My dad begs me to read the bible.. and still I disregard every request. Why? Why God? Why do I not care? Why do I just sit and look upon my life but not change? Why am I such a hypocrite? Why don’t I feel the desire to be in your word day after day? WHY DON’T I CARE?? Is it because I’m lazy? Is it because I’m a bad person? Is it because I’m too caught up in the world? Is it because I’m too caught up in her? I just don’t get it. In my mind I really desire to be this great man of God leading and helping people. But when rubber hits the road I become apathetic and give up. Help me to have faith, help me to put my desires into action, and help me to strive to know you!

always,

looking for answers

Dear High School

You cause way too much drama.

Please get over yourself.

And remember,

No one likes you

so far.

So work on it.

please.

Sincerely me

A letter

I thought I would let you know,

I have decided to keep these feelings to myself. Holding them to me and only me. Not letting you once know. No, you will never know. Not ever.

If only you had the key.

But you wont. Cause I have locked up my heart.

No, you will never know.

It will be up in the air

full of empty questions

and

left a mystery.

No, this is just a letter.

Of useless words and hopeless things.

But of course you knew that.

I knew that too.

yeah, it's me.

But of course you knew that.

Dear Sir,

I haven't felt like writing lately. I could probably equate this to the lack of unique experiences that i have recently encountered. You Sir, or your actions rather, have given me cause to write again. You are running a dangerous race Sir, you are traveling down roads previously trodden by mine own feet. Indeed the path has many names; arrogance, self-preservation, and vanity are a few. Dear Sir, there is no room for company to travel this road with you, this road must be walked alone. If this is the path you chose to tread then friends and they camaraderie they entail must be left behind.

-The voice of experience

P.S. there is more to come

Hypocrite

hmm let's play a game.

you're the pot and I'm the kettle

or are you the kettle and I am the pot?

I don't know but ether way...they are both black.

hmm. :)

sincerely me

Dear someone

i want to have a best friend.

someone who will wait for me at lunch. someone to walk with me at school. someone i can tell all my stories to.

someone who i can tell everything to.

i just want someone.

Dear little girl

Little girl, little girl how naive you are right now, so innocent and sweet without a care in the world. In the arms of people who love you and surrounded by friends. Yes, life seems so easy for you. Enjoy it now-take it all in. Enjoy every simple thing-take in the details. Feel the sun on your cheeks and let the breeze hit you. For now it may be easy but we all have to grow up someday. Be careful though, because the world will try to suck you in. They will make you think you have to dress, eat, look, and think just like them. Don't do it. Don't fall for the hidden trap because once you do there is no going back. Hold on to the One who adores you and wants nothing but to guide you. Let Him guide you-let Him be your path. Because when you grow up everything will want to come at you. It's when you decide things on your own-you make the calls and the world will be charging at you- waiting for you to pick up the phone. But, don't do it! Don't make the mistakes we all seem to be making-don't let your life be ruled by an unsteady system. Keep your foundation strong and don't let your tower wobble. For when you come to an end of a string, tie knot and hold on. Hold on tight-hold on to the life of innocence. Don't let a boy or jealousy or intimidation make you let go.

Hold on to what you are living for.

Sincerely me

A Habit

Dear Friend

Our friendship has become a ‘HABIT’.
Even if you take out ‘H’, ‘A BIT’ remains.
Take out ‘A’ still ‘BIT’ remains.
Finally takeout ‘B’, still ‘IT’ remains

Always being as clever as ever.

Problems

Dear math

Yes its me, and I know our relationship has been doing better but to tell you the truth I am getting pretty sick of your problems! What am I Nancy Drew?? Sherlock?? I cant solve ALL your problems. I have my own you know! And you don't even care to help me with those! Find your X? For the millionth time she isn't coming back! MOVE ON! And when you're trying to explain something to me, try using names that people use in this generation NOT Shanickatyrabooya! I wont be able to help you because I wont be able to get past that name! And seriously? WHo cares if Suzy chased Tom! Just because you have problems with finding your X doesn't mean you need to worry about for how long Suzy chased Tom! Leave them be! You really need to stop worrying about people's personal stuff- so what if Lulu bought 93473928749387 grapes! You dont need to know how much she spent! SHEESH! ( though I am a tad bit concerned of why you are friends with people who buy that many grapes. just saying) Go ask her if you care so much! I dont even know Lulu! I dont want to see the points you give me and I dont want to help you find out how much sodium was in the product! I'd like to help but I simply cant. Go get a councilor or something but having a new X everyday or maybe 6 Xs really is not a healthy lifestyle.

Get some help. And then talk to me!

Sincerely me (not your problem solver)

Dear you

I love you,

That's my secret.

No hearts. No pretty drawings.

No poems or cryptic messages.

I love you

Dear God,

I don’t know where to go with this

I have heard so many things

So many different opinions

So many judgments

Pushing and pulling me to go their direction

I’m confused

And at times I’m a little lost

I make mistakes

I make the wrong turns

And I go down the wrong roads

Peer pressure has come and gone

Sometimes I’m scared it will make me

Or it might push me a little too far

Ill make an error that I cant go back on

The delete button would be deleted itself

It might influence me

I worry

Even though I shouldn’t

But yet…I still do

And I don’t know if I can change that

I’m scared of what people might think of me

What if I’m different?

The different nobody likes?

What if everyone hates me?

What do I do then?

When everyone walks out on me?

Where is the hope?

God?

I need some answers…

I know You are always there for me

But it can be so lonely

So confusing

So dim

So…lost

I wonder what people think of me?

I wonder if they even think of me?

I don’t want to fail You

I want to live for You

But…

It can be difficult

I need guidance

Through…everything

Help me.

yours always

Oh how I loathe you

Dear homework, Id like to say that you ruin my life You bring so much stress to me Id like to say that you ruin my social life Considering now I have none Thanks to you

Id like to say that you make me cry Feeling like a bunch of cars were dropped on me Id like to say because of you I get no sleep On average you take at least 5 hours a night Thanks to you

You make no sense And a whole lot of “no sense” Makes things more convoluted Like I’m tangled in a thorny bewildered forest Which leads me to being completely confused This whole stanza probably doesn’t even make any sense Thanks to you

I suppose its not completely your fault You are not the people who offer you up to me Then again its not necessarily their fault After all they have to give you up and its their profession….. PROFESSION?!?!?! Why would someone want a profession that had to deal with YOU?!?! Its quite mind-boggling…

They say we need you

They say your very helpful And you’re all very well worth it

Well I think NOT Your absolutely horrible

And completely vile I hate you And I mean it In fact if I could Id take a gun and kill you

Even if that is not realistically possible I am I can I ought and I will kill ya!

Sigh. Big sigh.

But I guess that’s not what Arborbrook meant when they told us their motto I guess it is something I will just have to live with Even though I wish you were dead...

PS. Hey im not the only one who has these feelings There are many who would like to take the honors so don’t worry you have many haters

Sincerely, your despiser Madison Goetting

Feelings for you only

Dear history class,

I don't know how to say this with out making it awkward in-between us but . . . I HATE you.

with passion.

~Love Chloe

Memories

Friends,

I cant believe this! We have so many great times in Whisper mountain- so many inside jokes! I wish we could go back don’t you? It was fun and I don’t think I have ever laughed so much in my life! You two have become some of my closest friends and I always have the best time with you guys. Waking up so early to take showers and staying up to have “girl talk”. Or saying we were done with the boys and give them evil stares ( I think I got pretty good at it ;)) I wish we could go back. It seems like a daze- a memory stored away for keeping. It’s a nice memory-bitter sweet though. It was sad to leave but the memory is always great to have. Something I will always look back on when I get older. I love you guys

sincerely me

Brother to Brother

Hey,

I guess its all down hill from here, the only thing that ever mattered to me is now in your hands and I let her get away it was my fault not hers. I can't force her into loving me, and I cant force myself into being happy, but I suppose I just have to be sad. I now realize the only thing that I have left to do is give you a few pointers on how to give her as much love as she deserves, the first thing to realize is that she won't talk to you first she loves it when you talk to her first, it lets her know that you care for her. Second, you must realize she is an incredibly beautiful lady and that other guys have eyes and they will see that she is beautiful, it is your job to protect her from the ones that will hurt her, third, don't flirt with other girls, let her know that she is the most important thing for you. Also, dont over do it, just keep it simple she is a classy lady and she enjoys the simple things in life, she is also independent dont cling to her, she wont like that. She will always need you by her side, because she does have weaknesses even though she doesn't show it. She loves you, remember that, she loved me and you are defiantly superior then me. Don't make the same mistake of hurting her like I have, I really hope you treat her like your only love in the world and don't make the same mistakes I have.

Love, your brother.